Little Black RainDrop

You grow up in this world being so naive. Believing that everything is what it seems to be, and that people are kind and caring. You expect your family to always be there for you, and to always support you with whatever you decide in life. You hope to have friends that become your family, and meet people who will share your interests and passions and see the world as you do. But the truth is, life is not any of this. As we grow up we are unaware of heartaches, betrayal and disagreements, until we experience them ourselves. Soon people who you held so close to your heart will not turn out to be who you thought they were, and along the way you will realise that the world is not such a beautiful place after all. Instead it is full of insecurities and doubts, questions and lonliness. And that is when you realise that at the end of the day we are all alone in this world. That everyone will dissapoint you in some way or another, and that no one will ever live up to your high expectations, not even yourself. And that is when you have to stay strong. that is when you have to keep being yourself despite how imperfect it all seems. Because those who give in, are not strong. Those who change who they are on the outside to fit in, to be accepted, to keep from those heartaches and betrayal and disagreements from hurting them, are not human. You are human because you are not satisfied with your life, and yet you still continue on with the way you believe life should be. You continue to hope for future miracles and opportunities and something more from everyday life. And this is what makes you special. This is what makes you, you.                                                                            

Currently listening to: Doubting Thomas - Nickel Creek (for the 137th time)

Term 2 Holidays.

Tumblr: another way to distract myself :)

Once again i have convinced myself that i will actually dedicate time to complete all my dreaded holiday homework, and study study study, but of course i know that’s not really going to happen.

So in the meantime, i have these two things to look forward to:

1. Planing a suprise for my gorgeous boyfriend
2. Going shopping with mothergoose for my formal dress

Yes I know, doesn’t seem like a lot, but more stuff will pop up eventually :) Each have taken, and will take a lot of preparation, so hopefully all goes well !

P.s. i have no idea how to use Tumblr.

Why is it even called Tumblr anyway….? reminds me of a tumbling haystack.

Anyways, for now i guess i’ll just enjoy the freedom and peacefulness of holidays :)

Life is the ability to feel so happy, you think your insides are going to explode. It’s being so upset or disappoited, you feel as if your stomach just dropped ten feet out of place. It’s running so hard, you can barely breathe. It’s the feeling of panic when you know you’ve been caught doing something wrong. It’s having that sudden rush before you kiss someone you care about. It’s opening your eyes and feeling them sting because you spent the whole night crying. It’s letting people go because new ones come in, and all the while realizing that life doesn’t have a purpose unless you let it.